journal d'une transition

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At dinner Dadu told me that the Collector has announced we must evacuate Bharat Nivas by noon tomorrow; the police are already there and some heavy confrontation seems to be expected. Even though it concerns all of us and I would like to be involved with the others, yet I remain blank, nothing in me seems to go that way!... *24-4-1978, Auroville: Early this morning Kenneth told me that a phone call had come last night from CPN Singh in Delhi advising strongly that we resist and remain inside Bharat Nivas. As this is not a “cultural program” but an action that seems to be necessary, I feel a little more concerned. When the masons arrived, they called me with Nat. for the “puja” before placing the door lintel, they especially called for C! Then C, C.E and I walked all the way down to Pondy, nearly two hours walk, passing near “Nandanam”… *25-4-1978, Auroville: We started with Piero loosening the props under the Chamber roof; something is drawing Piero and me to be together again; he joined us later in the tea-house and explained the next works very gently… Meeting Myrtle and others, I learned that 10 of us had been arrested and had started a fast in Kottakuppam jail, while others started to fast under the Banyan tree; I went to see them there, but I cannot join them while C is here. In the evening the 10 who had been detained were released and joined the others under the Banyan, there are now about 30 of us there. *26-4-1978, Auroville: It rained in the night and everyone had to take refuge in the Kitchen! A bad joke for a fast! On my way to work I brought them flowers and stayed with them awhile; then I went up with C.E to the Chamber. *28-4-1978, Auroville: Early this morning clouds started to gather with a strong wind and I hurried to the Banyan tree to help them to collect their things under the amphitheatre; then C.E. and I worked in the Chamber till noon. I have a question: “Mother, do You still want to use Matrimandir for Your work? Will You give a clear sign that You want it to go on and be completed?” I’m happy with the attitude of those who fast; there is joy and simplicity… *30-4-1978, Auroville: I suggested that C goes with V to the Banyan tree and waits there, rather than leaving from “Sincerity” with all her luggage; both V and C.E came with us to the airport. C could hardly eat, so moved she was to be leaving again; just before the Customs doorway we hugged a long time, it is so deep and good a love that unites us…