with Sri Ganesh

some insistence to read aloud what I have jotted down, as, he says, he has felt strongly that I was in direct contact, as if in conversation with Sri Ganesh or receiving something from him, and he was moved. But I quietly refused.

- 04-05-11:

Today I am feeling nauseous and very dejected…; I find myself so useless, so incapable of accurate perceptions, so far from being united with the true Will, so easily misled and so small: it is discouraging…

But I keep going through \the motions… although I believe I may need again some sign that I am not altogether deluded…!

Mother Sri Aurobindo

Sri Ganesh Brother and Friend, Show me how to give a little good in this world –

Would that loving beauty That I feel and see Be shared

And inhabit the lives Of those who care –

Sri Ganesh You are poised,

Your offering is ready, The flame is steady, To invoke Harmony –

Let it be, Let it be, Let it be…

Aum.

- 05-05-11:

… I find that I harbor an intense resentment towards this veil of superstitions and claims which is woven into most everyone’s lives

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