with Sri Ganesh

I wonder: what if this worsens and I become unable to move? What, then?

And yet I do not feel “sick”, I do not feel “tired”; there is still a kind of unaffected confidence in the body, and its love for harmony, for beauty and rhythm and the delight of material experience, material presence… In the end I said nothing to Uma: what could she do…?

Sri Ganesh, Tender and Patient Seer, Even though you have the knowledge Of what causes operate Behind all contradictions and doubts Of this world, Your entire presence Is anchored In the calm, enduring certitude Of Delight, The Fruit Of Her eternal Care.

- 13-06-09:

… Last evening there was quite a storm over the Center, followed by a fairly good rain; but here, not a drop has fallen!

… Among the flowers I offered this morning were some picked by M.: the chronicle continues…! I found him waiting by the door of the house in “Sincerity”, seated on the bench with ear-phones on and some music-player at his waist, wearing a cap and driving glasses, with that smile again when he greeted me… But I was frozen: the rictus, the demeanor, the play-acting, the motivation, the satisfied smirk… I could not have forced a smile on my face… He said he needed help from me – money; I said “no”, and that I did not know him now, that I did not know “this”, this person, this character in front of me. I went into the house, then; eventually he left – on some new bicycle - but, before leaving, handed me a bag of fresh flowers for Sri Ganesh, which of course I could not refuse…

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