with Sri Ganesh

Perhaps in this brotherhood each member is identified with one specific link and, through you, aware of the others, But your density Is very great And fine And calm… … In the afternoon, I go to the market in town and purchase a stock of incense, oils, camphor, scents, rose-water, and spend for it Rs. 1,000/- … Yesterday afternoon the sky had fully clouded over and was loaded with water, but it all shifted and moved away and this morning it is all hot and glary, the plants are curled down, withered and drooping… … Uma came to sing for Sri Ganesh… Since she is a practicing doctor, I thought of seeking her advice, as yesterday, in the market, I had another difficult physical experience: carrying my large shoulder bag filled up with the purchases, I just could no longer walk; my legs would not move, they were too weak and too stiff, my feet were like slabs of wood and I was limping so badly I really thought I would collapse right there on the pavement and I wanted to cry… I am a good strong walker, I like walking, I used to walk for hours on end and feel charged by it; but since last fall, this has been happening… And this morning, the muscles in the lower legs are very sore and I find my feet do not have the strength to lift up, to raise the weight of the body. I have no clues as to what causes this to happen, but it has only gotten worse in the last 6 months or so, since it begun – the first time was the day of the cyclone, in November last, when I was also carrying a bag full of incense for Sri Ganesh…! And this, now combined with other deficiencies and symptoms, struggles and weaknesses resulting of that monstrous “process of ageing” tends to make of every moment the occasion of a choice; I need to exert the will power almost for every movement and for some of the internal functions as well, such as the intestinal transfer and the breathing, or the ability to see clearly… And I do not know… - 12-06-09:

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