with Sri Ganesh

road accident last September) and sings to Sri Ganesh for half an hour or so, and it is a relief to hear her lovely voice and the wonderful tunes she renders so sweetly and I am happy that Sri Ganesh is given this respite from my boring attempts… … To go on with the chronicle on M.: yesterday Arjun phoned me, wanting to know what to make of M.s insistent request to meet him and talk about his difficulties with me; already what conversation they had had on the phone had worried Arjun and he felt concerned for me and even a little for my safety; I gave him the background to the present situation. And then this morning Bhaskar told me he had been quite disturbed by M.s behavior and aggressive and boasting talk when he had briefly visited with him, after seeing me, last Sunday, how he had talked threateningly about Dinesh, how he had boasted he was now rich and could help out, and had already signed a one lakh cheque for Arati’s savings and had ordered a new model motor-cycle and was no longer a beggar and how he hated “Sincerity”, and so on, until Bhaskar, mostly by his uneasy silence, made him realize that he did not wish to hear any more… … It seems to me I am a little confused and mired in as regards the nature of one’s offering, the expectations one has and the roles one wants the Divine to play; it is a confusion that arises from the old sense of separation. And yet I also continue to feel that reliance on the Grace of the Supreme, on its action and effectiveness, is rightly founded. But something in my present position is lacking, out of place, or misaligned…

Today, Sri Ganesh, you are Simply there, A friend among friends, Neither presuming nor pretending, Neither hiding not overbearing, And yet one senses Such a refined awareness

In your presence That one knows: She Has kneaded All of you =

You are wholly

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