with Sri Ganesh

… While cleaning and preparing for the puja I watched my own responses and let it all roll out, observing and it took a while for all of it to dissolve… It ends with the puja itself… Let it be…! Let it be what Thou willest. If I am not here by Thy Will, then I surely do not want to be here…! And if this life must be emptied even of this purpose and this service, then let it end…!

… Today is Elections Day…

… What strikes me most, finally, is the separation, the incapacity to truly offer to the flow of Harmony…

So, I look at you, Sri Ganesh, At your friendship, At your delightful sense of balance, I look at you and seek the action Of your knowledge So that Progressive harmony, Harmony of true growth

And increase May prevail, And your movement, Sri Ganesh, This morning, Is Very Beautiful.

- 14-05-09:

… The heat is very heavy and I start the puja much later than usual, in order to do some emergency watering in the garden…

… What is left with me now, regarding M., is a kind of sad, questioning perplexity, an inability to grasp the cause or the origin of such an ill- willed statement as the one he wrote (and which is only a milder version of what he had told Anand a while ago)... Where does it come from? Where does it begin?

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