with Sri Ganesh

- 29-04-09:

… I arrive here still a little upset by a visit M. made earlier at “Sincerity”, supposedly to further argue and justify himself over his claim on the gas cylinder, but in fact mainly to ask for more money... I used to be quite willing to help him out for his own needs; what now upsets me is the gap, the divide, the twisting or distorting that has taken place, belying the trusting communication that had been growing between us… Later, I write him a note on the spirit of hospitality and community (I had given him full use of a fairly harmonious and well-appointed house for several years in “Sincerity” and he had then left it, diminished and uncared for)… I need to face the fact that there has been, lately, an interference in my experience of Sri Ganesh, and that I have only myself to blame, my own shallowness and egoistic, self-serving posturing… It is almost as if I had to learn it all over again, or as if a grace had withdrawn a little behind a veil…

I need this service to be of an actual action of Consciousness, to be a real contribution to the Becoming…

Aum Namo Bhagavate, Truth is the First Necessity –

Truth is the Foundation –

Aum Namo Bhagavate, Sri Ganesh, Lord Ganesha, Figure of the Supreme,

Help clear the way, Help clear the way, Help clear the way.

Sri Ganesh, Today I find in you

An absorption, A complexity –

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