with Sri Ganesh

And rightness -

And yet You are Vast In your center So that She may

Reside In you.

- 22-04-09:

… The heat is rising…!

M. has cleaned and gone out; it seems the formations that were coming at me the last few days were somewhat relevant and that there is some falsity and treachery coming through him... Yesterday night Anand phoned me, alarmed: he had met Manikandan in the morning; who had ranted about me and threatened to write openly against me and also to change all the locks at the temple so that I could no longer enter it. Anand had been so disturbed by it that he had told Selvam about it and now wanted me to know and also wanted to understand from me how this could happen; M. had also complained to him that I was refusing him his “pocket- money” which was actually not my money, but Sri Ganesh’s… Yet M. knows very well that I haven’t touched Sri Ganesh’s purse but only helped him personally, as he is only doing part of my work there and for his own convenience and satisfaction… And now, I do wish he would move on and find a more balanced activity somewhere else…! But this disharmony has worried me all night, and it takes some work this morning to find a truer position – neither rejection nor weak surrender to the play, but centeredness and trust in the Presence alone. I have chosen to write these matters down as a concrete example – of a ground of observation -, an offering to try and grow more aware of the nature of these movements and of the process which may eventually lead to their harmonious and progressive resolution; I try to do it as objectively as I can.

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