Questions and Meditations

16 The false remedy

Here is the hourly routine of our human existence. The measure of daily time that must be apportioned, distributed, attributed, spent and utilized = lived out, without return, going back or recast, without any possible correction, an escape forward which is also an exhaustion, an erosion, a wearing out…

To do? To act? To influence, to bear upon?

Each body, each human ego must respond to constraints, needs and necessities that ride, overlap, rub and mingle each other and side by side – more or less pressing and immediate, already investing and invading the time ahead, the time which is no longer virgin, the time already allotted.

To each one one’s lot, it is said. A matter of hazard, of merit, of luck, of choice? Of consequence?

Some trajectories appear to be uplifted or raised upon a gathering of attentions, an audience, a collective expectation or a deal = “we carry and energize you, you in turn must satisfy us”. One then is the prisoner of a role, a persona, a myth and a contract.

Some activities are more intensive as well, allowing a better chance to forget oneself.

Most of us however, as individual formations of the human species, are held, forced, compelled and harnessed to our respective situations in the vise of which each consciousness must at all costs learn resilience and endurance so as to survive and care for one’s own. Of those of us, can it be asked to see, to call?

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