journal d'une transition

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Usually such situations are helped on by those who crave in ordinary ways – ambitious men, trading men, money-makers; they’ll trample their own mothers and embrace their enemies: they will be un-ethical but at least life will move on. Here, what can we do? At some level of creative resolution, it should have been Roger and Piero who, breaking away from their own personal limitations, for Her and with Her help, made the step and released the flow. It clearly didn’t happen. Each has, from his own point of view, valid reasons for blaming the other. The point isn’t there. The point is: how can It flow again? How can Matrimandir be completed, become whole and functioning, vibrant with Her Force? And how in the process can we, all and each of us, find commitment and progress? I am no “feminist”. And really I believe we are all here to try and become true individuals – persons, consciousnesses – whether we happen to be of one gender or another; and besides, as Mother has explained, there is no longer a pure feminine or a pure feminine anywhere incarnated. Each one individual must learn to integrate both the aspects and their myriad variations. Yet there is still a basic difference, regardless of the physiological apparatus: women have access more innately, intimately, directly and consciously, if they aspire for it, to the creative nature of the Force; they can almost effortlessly seek for living ways of resolution and discern processes towards progressive harmony; they can approach issues with a deep practical sense, in a perspective that is lasting and basically integral – non-exclusive. If here in Auroville we become able to let that sense express itself at the service of Her Work, to make room for it and support it and strengthen it, right into Matter, then it will become interesting, and I am confident that Matrimandir will again guide our movements in this adventure. There is no criticism involved here. It is only that I feel constantly that it is up to us, not with muscles or with minds *29-5-1989, Auroville: I have been thinking, and feeling, to try and call women to Matrimandir, women who have known You physically… Show me, Mother…! … In a moment Selvam will come for his “class”; I am not sure of the nature of this relationship: I am certain that it reaches deep and is valid, but I don’t know how it can evolve… *30-5-1989, Auroville: As I have left a written proposal on Mauna’s desk at Matrimandir, about inviting women who may want to serve You in helping with decisions and choices regarding Matrimandir, I have since felt some regret, in the sense that I do not wish to attract attention at all; perhaps I am not ready to take it the right way, as I am not purified enough yet… But I did feel to do it for You, so that something stirs this inert play of egos, letting Your Force act and flow… For, without It, this place makes no sense and Matrimandir will not be built… but with an active need, to break through this impasse. My choice of words may be inadequate; please understand. Divakar”