journal d'une transition

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*7-8-1988, Auroville: Timidly, the urge is forming of perhaps writing another book, but on a different basis than last time – not trying to offer a perfect gem, but as an inclusive means for the sadhana… … The coming week – of the 15th – appears already crowded; and afterwards, Su is to move in with me here, so as to free C’s house and prepare it for her next stay…; and I’m not quite sure about that…! *8-8-1988, Auroville: Early today Krishna came, just after N had come and gone, with the sense of this special date of the 8-8-88, but I was confused and not receptive to it: it surely manifests a rhythm, and I may have felt it now and then through the day, but I can’t say I am aware of it really… *9-8-1988, Auroville: From midnight till 1 this afternoon I ran the cement mixer at Matrimandir, and Su was there too, giving the signals to the crane operator… Ar. was there part of the time as well, and John H all through; it went well. And this afternoon I went to meet Soaz and the kids on the beach, and swam with Samuel, washing off the cement and the fatigue… *12-8-1988, Auroville: There’s been a soft rain, and every living thing is filled with sap and rested in the quiet, cool air… There was another scene with Ar. today, which resolved, as usual, in laughter; she is like a child-woman with me; she doesn’t seem to ever grow up, in this area of life… *13-8-1988, Auroville: I had lots of accounting to do this morning, and the funds are now nearly exhausted; we can only go on with borrowed money now, or else with proceeds of the sales, as Larry is planning, of the old solar panels; and still I can see it will not be sufficient… … I cooked dinner for JF.D and Michel, and we worked at translating JF.D’s piece about the building of the Pavilion of France in Auroville, which he wants to post as an open letter; he has at least accepted to let go of some of his aggressiveness towards a variety of exclusivism he has encountered here in Auroville; I believe that he is onto something valid and meaningful, but his emotions, pent-up for so long, are constantly coming in the way… *15-8-1988, Auroville: I stayed at home this afternoon. Soaz and Samuel came, both grumpy and depressed, but slowly they revived… This evening we went to watch the dance performance – a choreography by Coni, performed by her class, on an ancient Greek music; I liked it well enough, and it gave sense to her work of the past several years; and Ar. was good too, all along, and they were all happy and fulfilled when they came out after the show…