journal d'une transition

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*4-6-1982, Auroville: Tonight, there is a film show in “Aspiration”, an old fine movie with two actors I am very fond of, “Moderato Cantabile”, and we decide to go; we ride very slowly…

*5-6-1982, Auroville: The body of the child seems to have engaged again in the birth canal, and Diane feels we must get ready; but I sense the energy isn’t there yet… I have gone to see Marcia for a moment: her own delivery is supposed to come first! *6-6-1982, Auroville: Is it a boy or a girl? A few people have had dreams of a girl; yet the energy we both have been feeling, could that be of a boy? But I sense a pressure to offer that question and to have no preference… … Barbara comes every day; she is nearly the only person we see… *8-6-1982, Auroville: Marcia has begun her labour; but there seems to be some confusion. Yet I can’t leave Diane to be with G.M and Marcia… … Barbara tells us that M.Z has been identified as… a drug peddler, and asked to leave the country within a few days…

*9-6-1982, Auroville: I keep going for news, as Marcia’s labour goes on and on…

*10-6-1982, Auroville: Marcia’s labour went on into the night and, by the time the child’s head showed, she was too weak for it; she had to be taken down to Cluny Hospital in Pondy. But I dreamt she was alright and the child was a girl… … We learn at 9 am that the child was born at 4.50 am: a girl, Maaura. Diane is relieved now. And I feel we have time for “our” child…!

*14-6-1982, Auroville: I just want quiet, peace, calm, for a clear coming…

*16-6-1982, Auroville: Diane woke up saying she has dreamt of another fight between us and her threatening to leave… Later today I find her lying awake, obviously contemplating some fear or some difficulty, but she will not talk about it…