journal d'une transition

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Yel is dear to me, and desire has been a long time between us, and today it began to happen; I hadn’t planned it, it was given…

*21-11-1980, Auroville: Today, 7 years and one day after Your body was interred in Sri Aurobindo’s Samadhi, the Central Government appointed Administrator, Justice Nigam, officially went to Bharat Nivas and put the locks on it… The precision of it all! The force of Your purity, Mother! We are so very blessed to have been made your children…! *22-11-1980, Auroville: Nigam has officially handed over the care of Bharat Nivas to Piero, as the Engineer of Auroville… The irony! … I am… a man, a human being, borne on the breath of a Reality that ever seeks to manifest the Unmanifest, completing itself, undoing and recreating and fulfilling itself ever more, freeing itself from its own, self-created illusions into ever more directness, richness and plenitude of experience… *24-11-1980, Auroville: After more than a year, we have a concreting at Matrimandir! The people of “Aspiration” arrive in the bus that Nigam has recovered from the SAS! G.M and I resume our familiar positions, he at the vibrator and I at the mixer. It lasts the entire day. … V is not well and she is getting more afraid; there seems to be some infection in her uterus. C.E’s attitude is no help. I ride over to Kam T’s to get some medicine and ask her to come by tomorrow morning… … I am so… un-conscious, and it is consciousness that’s needed! I can only try and call Your attention!!! *25-11-1980, Auroville: The SAS has filed an Injunction in the Supreme Court of Calcutta against the Government’s interference in the conduct of a “religious institution”…! In doing so they are only exposing themselves further, this being such a weak argument in the light of Sri Aurobindo’s Works! But until its verdict, it seems the Court must impose a status quo and that Nigam cannot take over more than what he has already done… *26-11-1980, Auroville: Fred has returned from Delhi in a rush, to have us all sign of Power of Affidavit authorising a lawyer to represent us at the Supreme Court. The SAS claims to stand for the Ashram as well, and for all the sadhaks and devotees! So, the fight has now shifted to that level! Is Your and Sri Aurobindo’s action the basis of a religion?!!! We have all felt a calm, a meaningful calm… This is a thing so vast and so central! … About 240 of us, adults, signed the formal paper which Fred has now taken back to Delhi…