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wood breaks. They all fall straight onto the rock platform! I am scared, feeling partly responsible, and I intensely want this event to be erased, that it HAS NOT TAKEN PLACE… And I see then that they are all lying on their backs, merely dazed; and soon they wake up! … Narad tells me, in the office, of a new controversy with Piero over the planting of trees near to the Banyan tree… … G.M sends for me urgently: it seems that Arjun and Deepti have been molested or beaten up in Pondy, in a restaurant held by some Ashram-related youth; but they have already returned and they’re alright; and I can’t accept the rush G.M is in, as if propelled towards violence; he gets upset at me and goes alone… … Mangini comes to me to share his “idea” to… get married! This is so refreshing! He makes me laugh and laugh…! … This evening I wait with Marcia for G.M to return. He drives back well after dark: he has met the youth, seen his blunt lying – the mystery of this lying…: this contradiction on the path, in the Ashram, in the SAS, in us perhaps…? It had been long since the 3 of us had thus been together: the tranquillity and security of it, a relief and a grace… … There is this… “duty”, of a growing directness and transparency, attentive not to lend oneself to whatever may contradict Your Presence… *20-8-1980, Auroville: The day is spent in town, with G.M. At the FRO, the officers are every time gentler and more welcoming; today they even show me a letter written by Karan Singh to the SAS! We have lunch with PP who gives us the latest news from Delhi, mostly encouraging. The UNESCO man, M’Bow, seems to be very helpful. … G.M wants to go to the movies! This is my first movie in about 10 years! We see a recent “kumfu” film, which moves me unexpectedly; there is innocence in it and yet wisdom is also there… It was made by Bruce Lee just before he died and there is a striking purity about it, like a child who comes, learns to the utmost possible, “The Indian Express” has only published about a third of my letter, with gross distortions and even added sentences, along with the reporter’s comments. It is sickening. It is better to feel the love in the slaps one gets… So long as there is somebody there to be slapped, slaps are bound to come…! … When I go to him on my monies-collecting round, Narad tells me of an offer he has received from the Sultanate of Oman to provide indoor plants… *23-8-1980, Auroville: About 40 of us had to go today to the Tindivanam Court to hear the final judgement on so many cases; I didn’t have to, as all “my” cases have been cancelled so I could be “deported”, but G.M had to… A new judge has been officiating, who carries the naturalness of the deep spiritual heart of India; he said to everybody that it is for Indira to solve the problems, and not to worry; and everyone is formally released, under security…! and quietly goes away… *22-8-1980, Auroville:

*26-8-1980, Auroville: