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about horses, and she feels freer in her own expressions…; she rests her head on my arm throughout the meeting… I introduce A.R; this moment is interesting for me, as are also present M.S and Cyril and Rakhal and L, all of whom were part of the community experience in France… After many topics, the “Auromodel” matter is brought up again; K.T is most touching with his caring seriousness, yet it is also obvious that he is not taking into account a whole side of the issue, while Ram Singh is plain stubborn with that legitimate pride of a good peasant, having little else to show in order to be even considered…! … The Inspector Thomas has come with summons for 32 of us to explain before the Magistrate tomorrow why we shouldn’t sign a “peace-bond” with 28 of the SAS agents, valid for 1 year, with a penalty of Rs 500/- per individual…! … Al.B and Fred make a suggestion which I feel is right and happy: that each of us signs individually a statement to the effect that we do not have any claims over any assets in which we may have invested or which we may have created in Auroville; and this same statement would be signed later on by every newcomer to Auroville… … Noh, Phil and I are half an hour late serving the dinner, but no one is upset, the children are running and fooling all over, crawling among the pots and under the tables, it is all a cheerful mess…! *8-2-1980, Auroville: After visiting with Krishna for an hour or so, I attend the Coop meeting at “Tapoloka”. We all sit at one table; after a while I offer to take down the points we wish to articulate into a statement for the Court and the officials; we work on it this way, until it feels fairly accurate and inclusive… … J.Cl has arrived: another one of our “community” in France… He has not changed much; his language is still the same colourful, prolific, elaborate and funny flow… … P.G returns from Tindivanam: the whole thing is postponed to the 26 th . … Dadu is quite taken by J.Cl, his generous nature, his humour and good-will; it is sweet to see that…! *9-2-1980, Auroville: Looking to borrow a bike, I walk down to the Nursery in the afternoon. M.H and Narad greet me warmly and Narad makes me sit and tells me, all jubilant, that Poppo has come to him with a broad plan for the Gardens, with all of Your indications in it, and they are going to detail it together. … At dinner M.S and Cyril join us: it is a comforting joy to see my little boy all bright and lively next to his mother, here in Auroville, at last… … C.E had returned to his hut the evening of the day I had found him in Pondy, without V. I needed today to find out whether A.R could then move into the empty hut… C.E looks happy to see me; he makes it clear that he’d like me to stay on and, quietly, slowly, carefully and tenderly we enter together into our intimate home- space, each relieved to find it again, each happy to be able to give and receive, in full trust and freely. When it is like that, I wish it would be gold or some luminous substance that our bodies would secrete…

*10-2-1980, Auroville: