journal d'une transition

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unclear, there is still competition and rivalry with the plans for the completed sphere… I want to be vigilant and not to commit myself too far lest the weight of the work falls on me again as before, I want to remain as a helper and wait till more of us participate – which isn’t yet the case, as no one else really has joined…

*2-11-1978, Auroville: At 9.30 am I cycled over to “Certitude” for the PT meeting. It seems that, in those last weeks, everyone has tired of being exclusive; and the very people, especially in “Aspiration”, who were rejecting whatever wouldn’t fit into their “feeling” are now calling for free and open sharing and participation; about the “Coop” for instance, Diane speaks with simplicity of the real meaning of it and that people are actually cooperating in every field and activity and so there is no need to “fix” arbitrarily any group… Afterwards I want to find Kannan; he was repairing the blue van and willing to drive it down if only we could get it started; we pushed; it started and we came here and I asked the older mason to come with us down to Pondy to look for cement. It was too late already for “Coco Gardens”; we went to a place the mason knew: all the stock had been sold overnight. We went to another place where I’d left my name, just in case: no more stock either. I insisted to get even black-market addresses and one of the men there reluctantly gave me the name of a shop; we drove there quickly, the address wasn’t quite correct but, from that to another and another again, I found a dealer distributing the last of his stock, good cement at a regular price and I could buy 5 bags from him; we retrieved the van and rushed to the dealer’s go-down and reached it juts as the keeper was about to leave with the keys…! We met Eliane who had some glass to be picked up and Michael T. who needed some wood to be carried back and we all have a late meal together. Eliane gives me news that moves me: Kiran has asked Auroville to allow her to join; she is even ready to move to “Aspiration”! This is very courageous of her and most encouraging too, for it means that whatever the difficulties, even the most rigid situation or opposition, if there is sincerity in the being, You can still do Your work and with time inevitably things find their true course… This, along with the lessening of exclusivism I have witnessed this morning, gives me some positive energy… *3-11-1978, Auroville: As R.O and I are waiting by the office for the others, F comes and hugs me end tells me that today we can start removing the scaffold from under the walls of the Chamber as Piero has, just now, finally got confirmation from the engineers. This was the very job I had started to do 6 months ago with “my” team, that had raised that heavy scene with Piero – which still lies in my stomach!.. And now we are doing it and nothing else has happened in between but for the concreting of 2 small beams in 2 of the 4 ribs… It is like a gentle smile given to me that I now return to the very same work, and we have a good team: R.O, Patricia, Al.B, C.E., red P, and Gl… That last is somehow the sweetest of all, that Gl has come back to work and we find ourselves together again, with all the love we haven’t been able to express for almost a year now… At noon I cycle fast down to Pondy to reach the Bank in time. Later, as I sit writing with some lunch, Eliane joins me, she tells me of the Agenda 2 that she had got while in France and of the name she received in a dream, “Aurelle”, and of what Satprem told her about it…