journal d'une transition

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C.E has already started to build his capsule in the casuarinas grove and it feels alright. There’s something tough today; perhaps it came with Roger A’s visit, some outside influence always trying to gather support in our midst; I had images of Navajata. Yet Roger A. is likeable in some ways… It isn’t very clear where all of this really stands… The first lorry of marble has arrived; we had prepared the place for unloading it days ago; considering the technical aspects, unloading 5 tons crates with just a few crow bars and some steel pipes to roll under them, it’s a small feat; we worked late into the night; some of us insisted we postpone the opening of the crates till tomorrow; I feel bad and regret our French team of last year, we’d have done it all! *23-1-1978, Auroville: Every morning R. wakes me up sweetly at dawn by lighting two candles… Today we have to move that special, large crate over to the Workshop; the huge white marble cube is in it… The last of the lorries arrived at 11 am; in it were the huge panels for the doors to the Chamber; we worked through the night. *29-1-1978, Auroville: I am upset: I seem to have become stone or dead wood, and cannot find the capacity to move forward; perhaps I have been too satisfied and proud and now I have lost the contact? I need to be HUMBLE! I could go roving like a mad man knocking my head against the walls that have come up while I was unaware! *5-2-1978, Auroville: It is funny how in the last few days a part of me has risen that wants to express itself, to pull me out of the nets of this personality… and it has black eyes; it has an intensely centred vital, not like mine, cracked and full of fears! I feel like I’m wearing a shirt that has become too small, too tight, inadequate…! *7-2-1978, Auroville: We have all agreed to arrange a room under the amphitheatre for the reception of visitors, displaying the models, maps, etc. Piero then showed us his new model, with one single entranceway starting from the Urn and going underground to emerge into a circular gallery in the lower part of the sphere, and it is just as You had said at the beginning… If this could be accepted by all the “parties”, many problems would be solved! *9-2-1978, Auroville: I cycled down to Joss’s and found him right in time as he was just with the man who usually locates the water-sources – a local water-diviner. We arranged for him to come over tomorrow and Joss will send the entire crew in a few days… Then I went to Kenneth and he explained to me about the casings, the slotting, the work of the crews, the things to watch for… I felt encouraged – that You really want that well and pump here and I only have to follow the thread…