journal d'une transition

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Officials came and went, the Collector came but would only answer with the “law”; yet later we made it clear that we would use no violence under any pretext, but that for them to pass through and reach Matrimandir they would have to enforce it upon us physically, we would do “satyagraha”… We all became completely silent, sitting all of us on the road, the policemen in front of us and, right behind them, the SAS people. They were actually unable to take the decision to force their way. I felt inner tears surging up; the situation was very deep for a while, all fear was just wiped away and we were clear and looked straight ahead, without any hatred – just the certitude of the need for truth. Followed a long wait, and the Collector went away. Later Fred came to tell us of CPN Singh’s advice on the phone, that we must break no law and should disperse. There is some hesitation but it seems we must accept it as this comes from the man whom Satprem has introduced to us as chosen by You to help Auroville… In the evening the Collector’s orders came that the SAS people may pass. Their entire group walks between two lines of us, looking so serious and… “funereal”! And we are being so “trivial” and “unspiritual”… So, while they meditate at Matrimandir some of us quickly rehearse some catholic funeral song and, when they come walking back, everyone is standing holding a candle stick and loudly singing, with so much laughter! What matters to me is that, when we were sitting on the road, having stated our position clearly and refused any further talk, concentrating, I knew than that it was worth doing – that one can be sincere anywhere upon earth, yes, but that this force, this claim, this influence has to be rejected, opposed or brought to change; and I was really ready to go through whatever might have come… I had some difficulty not to be pained at Fred’s show – again – when he chose to come and impart the news to us when he had refused to join us earlier… But does it matter?! *11-8-1977, Auroville: I walked with G.M. over to Auroson’s for the Pour Tous meeting; group after group people kept arriving till after 9.30 am, even H.I. and Dietra were there. It is then decided that a small team will go at once to “Fidelity” and tell Jagdish to move out with his belongings. When we arrive he isn’t there, though the door to his hut is open; Jorgen, J. and the ladies, as we’re hesitating, come and lock the door before us. But soon some of us smoothly break the lock open, enter and move the things out. I try to tell Juergen and J. not to worry, but then a few of their group make a show against G.M, saying that his power rule has come to an end; they have received the occult message in the night… We laugh at this nonsense… Some police joins in, called in by them, and they are also laughing and they take pictures of the whole scene… Ram and Ramaswamy come by, even Roger and Pashi come, and leave, disgusted! But among us it is joyful! Satprem and Sujata have returned yesterday, Nicole has seen Sujata this morning; it seems that the message from Kireet and CPN Singh to us on Monday was “ill- translated” by Fred: we were within our rights to remain on the road! On my way to Matrimandir I spoke again to Juergen, repeating that we have nothing against him, J. or the others, we just have to see Jagdish out of Auroville now. Ravindra also came by; I got shouts from Mir. And a preaching from Karen, but I didn’t mind, I actually like them all!