My experience of Satprem

Why?

Was there no longer Mother’s protection?

This question burned in each of us.

Once more I wrote to Satprem.

I did not quite understand his reply – I must have lost it – and I wrote him again.

He answered: “20-7-76. Divakar, of course we must build it, this Matrimandir! But there is a way which has to change. It is not for nothing that we had received three warnings, is it, if that is correct. Three “accidents”. But when I look at Divakar, I see two beings. So, what is urgent? If you think we are not “together”, then you know nothing of the labor and the sorrow that lay on my shoulders. There, walk forward, be ONE. Satprem.” One may wonder whether Satprem would have written the same words in Mother’s physical presence, for She always discouraged drama and “big words” and used to gently mock Jesus’s lament on the cross – one tries, one gives one’s best and, if one falls, so what, one gets up again, that is all: Truth alone exists, Truth alone is eternal! There was also in Satprem’s answers an exclusive emphasis on the internal psychological work, reducing the external action to a mere occasion or pretext – which, in my perception, reproduced division. I felt that Mother would not have pronounced Herself so. For, with Mother, all was one – the outer action, the truth of the enterprise, the truth of the material object, as the truth of the soul, all was embraced and encouraged at once, all was reconciled: the material Matrimandir must be built, just as our nature must be converted in the light of the psychic being, at once, together, without any valuation. Mother was present in the least material or practical detail as She was in the highest and most absolute experience. Everything had meaning.

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