My experience of Satprem

Exile

During the ensuing period of purgatory, it was often Satprem’s utterance “We shall meet again” that acted as a lifebuoy; for it was evident to me that Satprem would never have said those words had they not been founded in truth.

Nata, through his patient and loyal letters, was also a great help.

And the branch I often clung to was the reading of these “Notes on the Way” appearing in the Bulletin – which I went to consult at André’s, the Mother’s son, and Janine’s, Fabienne’s mother, in Paris. The first two years were dedicated in a way to the exhaustion of the old formations. I was exempted from Military Service on account of psychological instability (it had not been hard for me to immerse in a state of fragile imbalance). Then I also was able to reach the end of my community commitments, having realized that the first condition of the indispensable change was the establishment of a direct and central contact with the Action of the Mother’s Force – and the rest would follow. During these times of great personal tension, there were of course a few damages – for instance I broke my back. There were also some beautiful adventures – for instance the journey Krishna and I made together, in Spain first and later in East Africa. It was after this journey that, hurting even more from not being able to return home to Pondicherry as Krishna had done, I withdrew gradually from all community bonds and attempted to better concentrate.

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