How to call It?

lucky draw which are conducted without our participation, and our conscious will has but a very limited bearing, all through our lifetime, on the condition, state and capacities of our individual material aggregate. Moreover, the tensions and pressures, the entries, incursions and shocks and influences that the agents of our environment constantly exert render all possible equilibrium chancy and conditional. But where this dictatorship shows itself the most ruthless is in its invariable ordinance of the biological itinerary we must all compellingly submit to: no sooner has the body reached its maturity, “adulthood”, than already some of its cells cease renewing themselves and its degeneration begins. To this reality that is our lot as natural creatures, our vital and our mental beings have learnt to adapt with some measure of success by providing us with some perspective and distancing. And it is the investment, the commitment of these two instruments, mental and vital, that has allowed us to define, strengthen and affirm our individual ego and its personality – for the lapse of a lifetime! But what becomes of the lived experience, of all that one has felt, loved, dreaded, discovered, understood and learnt? Does not this moment comes, in each and every existence, when flares and flames the question: why all this, what for all these efforts and trials, these sorrows and these encounters and these offerings, if all of it is to be erased, annulled, undone, betrayed, annihilated? It is what we name “civilization”.

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