Another Choice

Likewise the repetition, expected by the others and desired by oneself, so as to establish the stability and continuity of our personal identity in spite of the constant flux of influences, plays its part. These repetitive contours and tracks gradually form the ruts for the constantly renewed passage of energy: one must be this particular person with its recognizable characteristics and behavior and it is understood that we shall remain faithful to this image and shall only let it be modified by the generic terms of the successive phases and accidents of human existence.

We play the game.

Till death.

It is understood.

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However these ruts, so very necessary, are also the agents of wear and tear.

There is diminution: as one distances oneself from the initial movement of simply drawing the energy to grow and to become and as a personal formation crystallizes, the thrust of the being towards the future lessens and turns calculating.

There occurs ageing, stifling, engorgement and burdening and fatigue.

Whatever the result, in our eyes as in the others’, whatever our success or our routs, our subterfuges or our offerings, this personality we assume and to which we have identified, which has become our life-buoy amongst the waves and the surge of the world, becomes also our yoke and our cross.

If each one is thus partly the creator of the personality which acts as one’s passport in society, each one becomes as well its slave and its prisoner.

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