Another Choice

We recover the possibility of choice.

We discover the storeys and dimensions of the house and understand that each storey has its own unmoving centre.

And thus do we become aware of the mental witness, which watches all without taking any part, but may lend or withdraw its support: with its aid we can draw the inventory of the data, features and liabilities of our nature. We become aware of the vital witness, which assesses, appreciates and grasps without intervening, but may activate or withhold its energy: with its sense, we can rid ourselves of certain movements and cultivate some others more compatible with the chosen orientation.

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Our sex is first of all corporeal and physical: it is corporally and materially that our sex stirs with desire, pleasure and orgasm, triggering a complex cellular activity which is inscribed in our organic and physiological equilibrium. For each of us the sensual, nervous, emotional and mental associations are unique and each of us maintains unique relations with sexual energy, according it a more or less consequent importance in one’s relations with others as with the environing social milieu. The difficulties, burdens and confusion, the frustrations, unease and the wants and lacks, the emotional pains and the moral quandaries which we all happen to experience at some point in relation to our desires, expectations and fears as sexed creatures, all result from our blindness. Under the pressure of the inner axis, we begin to see the motives of these associations that formed along with our personal ego in its constant quest for responses, postures and expressions that would be most appropriate for its representation amongst the others – we begin to see them and to dissociate from them, to consciously withdraw, for we now feel the necessity of this transparency, this realization of the true nature of every movement. We observe these mutual arrangements between different parts of our personality which make us insincere, calculating and cunning: these methods of reciprocal exploitation which so often apply between individuals as well as between groups are first practiced between the constituents of our own figure of ego.

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