with Sri Ganesh

And he is so sweet and he laughs and cries and is so candid and trusting and clear and aware; and he has been in so much pain and still is in pain, but wanting to come home… But I had first met Dr. Baskaran, who had given me a fuller report and confirmed they had ruled out all the classic possible causes of Parthy’s abnormal vulnerability, such as tuberculosis, HIV, leukemia and even genetic immuno-deficiency, but still wanted to run a couple of tests and further monitor the healing of the surgical wound and the response to new antibiotics in the other swellings (one on his left hip and the other, quite large, in his inner right thigh). I agreed that they must keep Parthy in a semi-private ward for a few more days and Dr. Baskaran assured me it should be alright to take him home next Wednesday. Parthy had first been told he would be discharged now and I would take him to Sincerity right away and was quite disappointed when the doctors told him I might decide to leave him there a little longer; but he understood well, when I explained to him the need for a bit more fight in a controlled environment. And when I saw how thin and weakened his body had become and that there was still a large bandage on his back and his skin, apart from a number of scabs, had almost entirely pealed off, and his face was still so hot, I was relieved we had not yet taken him out. I asked him to spend the next few days concentrating and centering and sending all this remaining weakness and confusion from the past out of his body. He understood directly and told me some of his most recent dreams with Sri Ganesh and also with Hanuman who both came to him as his friends. I left a blank note-book and a pen with him and Parasu stayed along, as a separate couch was laid near to his bed for an attendant. I found the whole place very well tended and maintained and the staff efficient and quiet and the general atmosphere fairly harmonious and welcoming. As for my own condition, I was quite brutally reminded of the fact that I am in no state to be anywhere but in this environment here: my body is having no endurance in an exposure to the “outside” and also I found I could barely walk through that large compound from one block to another and back…

… Now, I have been meditating, Sri Ganesh… … Mother, Mother, Mother… On the need to unite with the right attitude for the future…

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