journal d'une transition

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Myrtle and I have to go back and work with Ojha after dinner; I like this man’s company, and this quaint quality of quiet and wakeful strength that emanates from him… … Back here Myrtle stays a long time with me; we have tea, talk and are silent, aware that this relationship is about to enter a new stage; she says she loves me and has loved me for long; knowing her, I can only respect her words… It doesn’t involve sexuality as yet; it is straight and considerate and sweet at the same time, and it has its own atmosphere…

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- 1981 -

*1-1-1981, Auroville: I did not light the Fire this year, but sat and watched from a distance; the kids soon made it noisy; Igor W’s music was played: it was not very good, but at least it was unconventional enough to prick at the sense of mental ritual that tends to pervade…