journal d'une transition

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… The mason calls me: the men have prepared the main door frame to C’s house, laid it with garlands and done a small puja and they are now ready to set it into the wall; it is very gentle… Murthy has sent the cement… … I sit by the sea; I am in turmoil… what to do when the division occurs between us? How then can we serve the Truth and become Your warriors? … It is dark when I reach the Kitchen; as soon as he sees me entering, Phil leaves; Pas tells me they’d just been talking about me and that Phil had explained that he had to protect himself from my “aggression”…! These projected densities, this mesh of unreality we keep weaving, this play of division we keep indulging in… how to locate the battle?!!! In this way Auroville becomes a sad farce… As I reach in the dark for the handle-bar, I find a spray of “Service” flowers… Whoever has put it there, I am thankful and I receive it as coming from You… Back here, Rad and one of the men help me unload the 40 bags of cement from the cart… *15-6-1980, Auroville: Two houses were burnt down last night in “New Creation”. … Marcia comes to spend the morning here away from G.M, after one of their fights; she brings the two dogs. She is so straight and candid… I take food for the 3 of us and we have lunch in “Dana”; then we work at bending the rods for their new roof all afternoon… *16-6-1980, Auroville: A general meeting has been called at “Tapoloka” regarding the fires. It seems that the entire village suspects Dharman of having started those fires, or at least his brother Damodaran, who is in the SAS’s pay… I had felt that we should simply ask for a collective concentration in the village of Kuillapalayam itself, but P.G pushes for a whole different line of “action”; he is dry and loud; I become uneasy… *23-6-1980, Auroville: For some days now I have been helping G.M and Marcia to build their new house; Pas has joined us most days, all 4 of us cutting, bending and fixing steel for their roof… Today though, I have to stay longer by C’s house here, as P.E’s team of masons have come to plaster the high borders of the roof… … Krishna comes by, smiling, but still enacting the same movement; I guess it has to be exhausted, or consummated…! He asks for his cassettes; just as politely, I indicate he himself may take them from the house; he leaves… … Yus comes beaming up at me at the Kitchen, holding a cheque in his hand: Rs 7,500/- from an industrialist G.M and I had written to…! We are saved for two or

three weeks, we’re happy like children…! … Sanjay Gandhi has died, in plane crash…

*24-6-1980, Auroville: We work in “Dana” all morning. Office work all afternoon; Christiane and Hervé come to help – Visas matters, lists and letters, receipts for donations… … Ramalingam has been caught and put in jail and his “beloved” has been brought back to the village…