journal d'une transition

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horizon, led by great slow silent whirls of smoky shapes intermingling, advancing into the empty sky, the sea intensifying its colour, with white rearings here and there and white bright fish leaping out in flashes, white and brown birds playing the evening, in and out, in and out… V joins me… I experience the extreme joy to be in the body, whole, materially situated, the sweet delight of it… There is a perception of a dimension of natural awareness that would allow beings and forces to play consciously, in offering, a delightful and meaningful continuum of being embracing all forces manifest… … We meet with Krishna and Annappa: a good moment of tranquil tenderness… When I ride back, alone, my body is buoyed with that joy that is filled with gratitude… and I realise how slight are the movements that can draw me back into the condition where difficulties become again so dense and slow to work through, where judgements occur and formations weigh and obstruct… *13-12-1979, Auroville: When I reached Matrimandir, early this morning, I found the carpenters all squatting near the structure. But, as the PT meeting was to take place in “Aspiration”, Jacq and I decided to leave it… We all meet in “Last School” – this building is quite overwhelming, a rhythmic breathing form wedded to the light… it is a pity that these buildings have been so neglected, but Bhaga now seems determined to save at least this one… At once I tell Prem about the carpenters’ move and ask him to inform Valya on the phone and find out the position… *14-12-1979, Auroville: About half an hour after we’ve started work, Ed calls up to us that all the carpenters are on their way, dressed in white. We rush down and split in two teams to block their access, between the Banyan tree and the workshop. The provocation is obvious. One of the carpenters slaps Dor on the arm; G.M who is right hear her, reacts at once, butting his head into the fellow’s head, like a bull retaliating, it is just funny! Slowly, as if reluctantly – perhaps bribed already or hoping to be – the constables walk over… Jacq meanwhile has run to fetch her bike, she rides in and picks me up and we drive to “Auromodel’ to ask Prem to ring up Valya. Perhaps because I was up for my night-watch, I feel as if it is all a dream… The police have finally halted the carpenters and the Inspector Thomas arrives later with a few more constables, lying to us as usual, but ordering the carpenters, in the end, to go back to their appointed station in the hills! … Prem has come over here; he was not able to contact Valya. Savitra is here already, writing; we three sit together awhile, it is an occasion for Prem to see the house and to “relax”… … At J.G’s desk I read through the correspondence between Jeffrey Cook and the “Aurofuture”’s staff, and I am impressed: this man seems to be very perceptive and finely balanced… J.G shows me his studies for C’s roof, I like it; it fulfils my requirements… *15-12-1979, Auroville: It takes me longer, every morning, to write down my dreams… When R comes to pick up the money for the “Envelopes”, I tell him of the proposal I want to present : that each person who receives funds for building an individual house puts a percentage of it into a special fund reserved for the construction of housing units for those who have no personal resources…