journal d'une transition

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I see and experience the Matrimandir as a living entity, the soul. No matter how hard the old world with its “one man show and the followers” and fully backed by high political power – all alien to the Mother’s Auroville – now tries again violently to impose its outdated concept by eliminating in the name of Unity a handful of souls, working at Matrimandir, pointing to the Mother’s vision, I believe that the soul of Auroville itself, the Matrimandir, and the awakened soil around it will decide and allow what will be built in the Peace Area. Remember Her words “the place caused the formation to be born”… And remember Her message: “The city will be built by what is invisible to you. The men who have to act as instruments will do so despite themselves? They are only puppets in the hands of larger forces. Nothing depends on human beings – neither the planning nor the execution – nothing! This is why one can laugh.” I would like us Aurovilians to come into the Matrimandir Oval to the Banyan tree (leave our desires with the watchman), individually, with enough time, to see with the eyes of our inner soul quietly and with the Mother’s words in our consciousness and aspire for Her vision to be fulfilled and to carry this aspiration with us in our daily life. Note: I soon had to travel back to France. C was having a very tough time coping with R’s condition, psychologically. She had also not quite recovered from her own physical ordeals, and her lungs were giving her trouble, and she was distressed at the steady diminution of her capacities. For her to return to Auroville, although she very much missed being here with me and with us all, was out of the question, unless and until she would be ready to stop her work as a psychoanalyst and leave everything and to accept the likelihood of her life ending here. I had also realised that it was important for F.J and Ch.J to have me physically now and then, as neither of them was anymore in a condition to make the journey here. I had therefore agreed to come and spend another 5 weeks in France. I left Auroville in April. Things accelerated while I was away. Since our official disbanding as a team on site, we had initiated regular gatherings of all those Aurovilians who were working regularly at Matrimandir, and this new, informal body, “the Matrimandir Workers Team”, allowed us to continue fulfilling our various responsibilities through the passing of minutes, recording all the practical and financial decisions of the day to day work and progress. These gatherings were naturally often occupied with the ongoing power struggles and deepening controversy over the physical destiny of the Peace Area. On the 28 th of April, everyone present – about 40 Aurovilians - at the gathering drafted and signed an open Statement, which was communicated and circulated widely in Auroville. Walter.” ***