with Sri Ganesh

Varanasi – and from there I… I have seen you and…! Without your physical presence I am feeling there is no any pran in me…! No strength, totally vacuum… and tears come… I know my feeling, you are with me always but still my eyes are searching you here and there… When I went to Ganesh temple and open the door of the temple, I find out red colour pad and a roll I am embresing to Ganesh…!!! I want to open that roll but on that roll written “it is for 10.5.002” and I learn a lesson of patient, long Tapasya (7 th April to 10 th May). I brought at home and kept near the Mother and Sri Ganesh. Where am I, I don’t know, I am totally absent in my beautiful love. It is an experience – tears of love and sweet sweet moment to moment – sorry I know you do not like this letter but I express very little, I hope you don’t mind. Hope your journey will be ok. You and mamma are so happy to see each other, I am also, Maa is Maa, her love…! Enjoy each and every moment this love, the love – only selfless love. My regards and lots of love to both of you, my sadhubaba. It is a gathering of the love, joy and service. I am so much helpless. I do not know English and French. I have so much to say you but I have no language, in short you can read my heart. Lots of love to my sadhubaba. K. Just read this letter and through it in W.P Basket.) She had accepted the wildness and independence of my nature and all my oddities of behavior and found herself happy and trusting and safe; she would insist on my letting her care for my needs at least now and then, and thus we took to have our evening meals at her place twice or thrice a week; it would delight her to prepare some of her recipes and she would invent new ones, watching me and learning from my conduct what I really liked, although she complained I was hardly showing any interest in food. On my side I would do things for her comfort: I rebuilt entirely the interior of her little bungalow in “Promesse” and installed for her a meshed-in verandah, in the same spirit I constructed the small room facing the temple; it had been my intent to express something in Matter of the true relationship between the evolving human soul and the god, devoid of any subservience but filled with profound reverence and open to real transforming spiritual experience.

She knew not to impose on my privacy in any way, but she also enjoyed being able to visit with me in “Sincerity” sometimes.

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