with Sri Ganesh

- 12-09-08:

This morning I had to ask Parthy to come instead of me, begin the clean-up and wait for me, as I had to meet Dr. Dinker Pai before he left for Malaysia, at the Ashram Dispensary: he examined the cyst in my face and declared quite categorically that this is a skin cancer and must be removed surgically without any further delay; as it is already large, it needs a plastic surgeon to do the operation… (This a battle I have lost; for almost ten years I had a funny little round scar near my nose on the upper lip; last year it suddenly started to grow a small bump behind it, within the cheek; Kamala gave homeopathy, as both of us thought it was one of those cysts, but I do not take well to homeopathic treatment and the bump grew into a lump; I tried every approach and every kind of attitude and I also prayed to You, Douce Mere, to take care of it; but all failed and people began to ask me every day what was the matter with this boil on my face and sometimes they would be a little angry at me; but it’s only a few days ago that Arjun had enough and called Dinker to fix an appointment for me, as at least I would accept to see him, since he was the one who, as a friend, operated on me, in the Ashram Nursing- Home theater, when I had this mysterious massive infection of the entire abdomen about 7 years ago… Dinker says this cancer is caused by too much exposure to the sun rays, combined with the aging of the tissues…) … I feel besieged, in the physical being, by contradictions; I know that, should a minimum of physical harmony become impossible, I would loose all interest; I do not have the motivation, the faith or the belief it takes to endure this process of diminution and defacing, this slow torture of ageing…

Sri Ganesh, The keys of harmony Are with you, Played and sung By you For the Mother…

Why is the material body subjected to processes That separate from the harmony? The question is, always, the same: Can you help to clear the way in Matter For the purpose of Delight, Truth, Consciousness?

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