My experience of Satprem

The hurdles.

During this period I had two parallel activities, the construction of the Matrimandir and the participation in collective tasks and services, such as “the Envelopes”, “the Visa Service”, “the Cooperative” or the relations with the local authorities – Collector or Police Superintendent for instance. At times both activities were physically joined when we had to use the shelters on the site for administrative chores or work meetings. For two or three years, D.P and I often formed a tandem for all kind of errands and according to all sorts of collective needs and this association was proving rather harmonious and often quite effective. Of Australian descent, D.P was the partner of one of the “pure and tough ones”, with whom I had only had distant contacts. This shared experience of work and service had naturally brought us closer to each other. Things became complicated. As per my own nature, I was not a candidate for the traditional couple; I did not either have the mystique of the sister-soul or of the one complementary woman soul, - an approach which Satprem too has much and often mined and promoted… Nonetheless our friendship seemed solid and there was also affection and esteem; moreover, with a sort of shared instinct, we both wished for “a child”. I was certain that she would be a good mother, she who had already given birth to three daughters and acquired the right distance. But it obviously meant a mutual commitment, at least for a considerable period of time, and a new arrangement of our daily lives and, on her side, what seemed inevitably bound to end with a break-up. Thus was she rejected and condemned, not only by her companion of many years, but by the entire group: that she now should openly choose, despite all the warnings, to stay with me was not to be Not only was I since childhood bisexual but I priced no manner of exclusivism.

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