My experience of Satprem

Yet even then he revolted and left again, in search of this space of plenitude at last, without walls.

But it is in Mother that he at last found it. He returned to Her.

Almost in spite of himself and his own contradictions, despite misunderstandings which were at times dramatic, of which Mother’s infinite patience alone knew the resolution, he eventually could remain at Her feet. It is within the orb of Her love, in the presence of Her living Immensity, of Her eternity incarnate, that he was able at last to give himself, learn to trust and commit to the work. And he has been a wholesome worker – “the workman” as he used to call it -, scrupulous, meticulous, persevering, stubborn if need be, dedicated, oriented and consecrated… and fierce! It is clear that, having received from Mother through the years such a treasure of conscious adventure, discovery and meaning, such prodigious promise for the future of the earth and for existence here itself, he could not accept, once She did withdraw Herself, to lay down the arms… One had to find how to continue serving Her, following Her and offering oneself to Their evolutionary work. He could but feel himself particularly responsible for this effort at continuity, for this loyalty and this commitment. It was imperative the path She and Sri Aurobindo had been able to hew and open, be trod by some of “mankind’ little ones”… It is also clear that Satprem, by virtue of the place Mother had given him and from his own exigency for fidelity and his own need to honor, down to his own body, the immense gift of Herself She had made to the labor of the Earth, could have made no other choices than those he did make, after Her passing. It is certain as well that Satprem had experienced the Ashram as an extension, an expression of Her Being and not as an institution. In this regard, as it appeared to many as if Mother, in the latter period, was gradually removing Herself from “external affairs”, Satprem had to observe that certain habits, certain ways of

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