Itinerary

momentarily made use of some of his practices to assist Her own work of awakening in the most material consciousness. Panditji had thus diligently and actively engaged in the resolution of certain obstacles; however, Mother knew that he was not yet able to follow Her further on, in spite of the reverence, respect and veneration he felt for Her, and She even advised Satprem, who had followed his discipline for several years, to free himself from his influence. When Satprem could begin to publish the 13 volumes of Mother‟s Agenda, transcribed from the recordings he had been able to save since the late 1950s, the situation of the Aurovilians was rather precarious and their unity of awareness and commitment was all the more crucial and it seemed to him that the affiliation of these “neutrals” to Panditji could be harmful in the atmosphere of Auroville; he thus addressed a warning to everyone. There was a large gathering of “Pour Tous”, as was then named our assembly, which would take place here or there, according to the possibilities; this time it was happening in one of the “solid” houses in “Certitude”. I clearly remember having pronounced in support of this warning; if I am now telling this, it is to try and express what I then realized, the amplitude of a deep misunderstanding, of which I only became fully aware through such incidents. I had not the least animosity towards these “neutrals” and, in fact, in some measure their position was comprehensible to me; I had never had any contact with Panditji; I had full confidence in Satprem, although I found him at times somewhat excessive; I was often very uneasy with statements made here or there and many times felt estranged or repelled by certain attitudes; but in my consciousness it was entirely clear, evident and certain that

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