Another Choice

In small touches day by day, as if in a sort of penumbra contiguous to the physical consciousness, to the body consciousness, one learns to regain the contact and to each time find it uniquely, through a question, a need for clarity in a given situation or some doubt regarding this or that undertaking, whether it is to do with practical details or with personal commitments – it is not so much the gravity of the moment than the intensity and clearness of the movement.

And then, it almost seems to say “ah, better not…”, without any weight or tension: “better to abstain…”.

Or it simply vibrates, tranquil, a “yes” without any reservation or agitation, full and attentive, a “yes: that gives and sees.

Or else it calmly spreads like a wakeful support, an encouragement forward – impartial but present.

And one discovers and learns to practice this light, very light internal shift, almost like a step behind at the level of the heart, to align, to rejoin the alignment, into this permanent subtle axis.

And it is like getting back on one’s feet, regaining one’s poise, a return to a profound “normalcy”, wherein everything is present, contingent and “inhabited”.

One gives thanks.

There are tears within, of recognition and gratitude – like the almost-drowned pulled back to the shore.

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In this alignment, from the center and with the body, the body’s internal sense, one feels concretely the unmoving presence above the head, a vibrant pressure which loves and understands – and, in the axis, the current.

“What is this energy, this force?”: it is not oneself who puts the question, but the intellect, the reason, or the interested curiosity of the separate ego.

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