Another Choice

Whenever we ignore this gaze, so light within us, and we prefer to obey our own impulses or to satisfy our own priorities – soon to bitterly regret doing so, or to laugh at our dumbness: we learn!

For – and this is getting clearer and clearer – there is no judgment of any sort, there!

It is as a memory that would be prisoner of no mode, none!

Its is like a knowing, purer and richer than honey, this honey of the distilled experience, which comprehends through identity, grasps through empathy, hugs without any gesture and comforts without any word.

Now that our ordinary daily life has found other spaces, like magic thresholds one learns to cross despite our misgivings, our eagerness and our confusions, the years already lived in this body appear in another light, for we now perceive through them the action of a protection and of a direction which seem to emanate from a reality more sure, more true and enduring and more loving, more conscious. And one realizes that, well before we even became aware of it, this presence was working silently within us and influencing our orientations, our encounters and experiences and even our external circumstances. And that we thus had actually been led to this point where from now on we must consciously unify our nature by choosing with our own instrumental personality to align and center onto this marvel – unknowable and yet so familiar and intimate.

***

Perhaps drugs and other outer means of forgetting our limitations or our burdens, altering our physical consciousness and intensifying and optimizing our experience of the world have tempted us – out of despair, curiosity, the desire to emulate or plain cowardice. To try it out has perhaps seemed legitimate at some point: if the ingestion of another material substance can propel us into new states of consciousness and enrich and vivify our experience, why should one abstain from it?

87