Another Choice

What are these two complementary modes of energy in relation to the inner person?

Must not they be progressively integrated within each star?

If they do still seem as yet irreconcilable in a single individual being, still bound to their respective destinies, is it not death that persuades us of their essential difference?

We are only convinced of their irremediable otherness because we are convinced of death.

This gaze from within which little by little emerges in our still so precarious existence, this gaze that crosses all our deaths, cannot be deceived: for, there, the death of the body is but a pause, a timeless period of essential assimilation. It is death that causes this void of the incompleteness, this want for the other, it is death that sharpens the pain of the separation of roles and energies, it is death that is in our lives the author of our dramas. Yet one must learn to cross the gulf in oneself and to discover within oneself the evolutionary means, beyond one’s successive identifications, to gather and reunite the two poles, in each one uniquely.

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Nowadays, almost facilitated by the disarray and the chaos of mind-sets and cultures laid bare to an unprecedented questioning, an entire gamut of identities can at last affirm themselves, which until now were generally repressed and suppressed or forced into the moulds of our conventions. The separation of the two poles in two human kinds – whose marriage and biological meeting constitute the safeguard and guarantee of the survival of the species faced with physical death – has exerted a continuous oppression of the individuals. Yet each body is unique, in each individual of one kind or the other the proportions, associations and properties of both poles are unique, there are no two compositions alike – and if death was not ever lying in wait, each one could be discovering one’s own unique equilibrium and meet the other as an equal.

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