A Tale for Tomorrow

why?… With nature, with trees or animals, sometimes with other children, I seemed to capture like a wave or reality, but it was only by returning again and again to my little quiet spot that I began to perceive as if another silent breath that illumines everything from within; and with the passage of time and the ever changing circumstances, this luminous breath has become more important, more central, more secret too, it is this that orients me and gives me sense, it is concrete and surer than all that I learn, or almost all, externally – I say „almost‟ because it happens that one meets others who are thus linked, whose eyes are awake, it is rare, it is so rare yet, but one can have faith that, one way or another, a day w ill come for everyone to awaken…” It is now Lois ‟s turn: “Even when very small already I felt the tension, like how everyone had to conform to some image, how everyone was concerned with it and submitted to it, the adults all entangled in it and the children already judged by it and I had a hard time with all these opposites, boy and girl, dead and alive, I sometimes had emotions and desires I was not supposed to know, or I was unable to feel what I was supposed to feel, and as I grew up and met and mingled with more people, adults and teens and kids, it appeared to me that most of them were slaves to the image that had been attributed to them or which they wished to fill with their life and demeanor, and I kept looking for some way out; and when I entered my teens and puberty, I made the choice to express not what was expected of me but what I actually felt whatever the consequence, and in this way, through lots of torment and little hells, I learned to rely

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