A Tale for Tomorrow

station and I listen and I feel, there, inside, where it knows, where it sees, where it flows without moving, without any story and there I am well, no longer separate – and that is what matters to me…”

It is now for Tan to tell us: “I don‟t have bad memories of my childhood; I was what is called an „introvert‟, I would listen and observe, I would feel all kinds of pulsions and urges, I believe I was more at ease in the midst of nature than amongst people, whether kids or grown-ups, but it is only with the intrusion of the mind‟ activity that I began to experience a deeper want, a lack, an absence, as if a split or an alienation and it tormented me; music was what helped me most; adolescence is a difficult place, I felt more reduced, glued down, like a drowning and there was something above that was pressing; and one day the screen or lid at once broke up for just one instant when I felt I was returned to where everything is a single consciousness, there are no words or thoughts to express it here, everything is the same but everything is true and full: when one has emerged there, even for just a second of our time, one can no longer believe in or adhere to the view of the cage, one comprehends differently the reality of the world and one feels a sort of shame at not being able to remain there, right there above, and to be yielding back to the pull and traction of the ordinary three-dimensional condition; so then one starts looking for the thread, the hand, the means of change; and in this way, gradually I became aware, within the body itself, of a passage, as if a bole of light linking the two realities and working for the change, gently but without indulgence, that opens one up and makes

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